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It’s january, mid 70’s and I live in LA. Was able to bronze today while i went on my midday run and still, I find a million & one things I want to complain about. It’s crazy the way it’s a never ending loop. If it isn’t one thing thats wrong then it’s another. When do i draw a line and realize life will always be this way so the norm shouldn’t be this mythical utopian facade that seems to exist in my mind where everything goes my way but the ordinary should be a messed up, unbalanced life and really I should freak out if things were ever to be perfect because then I would know i’m dead.

Anyways, I had a couple different blogs i wanted to put up but never decided to do so. Some about work but i don’t have enough to say about that yet so i wont. Some about la lifestyles but i figure i should live it a little more before i go there. Some about specific people but now i just don’t think they’re worth the exclusivity of my entire blog, given the 20 followers i actually have on tumblr. Plus you are probably very picky considering the high demand for these things. I wouldn’t want to stray away from hiding my feelings and showing you only the pieces of me i want you to see. But i’ll do it anyways, just a little. 

I don’t want to write a whole story here so i’ll make this short. I think living in LA hasn’t been easy, I’m lucky enough to have my brother(sam) here and i new found good friend(nils) but even with them here you still come to a new place and you have to make it your own. And this city is far from handing out favors to a newbie but i can understand that. This city is one of the most sought out places to live whether you like it or not and a cold shoulder comes with the territory when everyone wants a piece it. What i’m trying to get at is that i think as hard as it’s been here, i think i’ve been growing up, i wish i meant that in a literal way but unfortunately I think i’m as tall as i’m going to get. But i mean that in a way of my heart, mind and soul. I still have a lot of learning to do but i’m seeing things more clearly now and i feel more confident about the way i approach situations. Even when it comes to something like a girl, as complicated as they can be i’m not aiming to figure them out anymore. I’ve done that for too long, i’m over it. If you want to be unbearably complicated then thats fine but i’m checking out!

I only use that example because for me that isn’t the highest concern of my life right now, it might be for others which is a tough place to be and we’re all there at some point but the bigger issues of my life don’t fit into a couple sentences, for that you’ll have to call.