Lets see its my 4th day and night in los angeles, california. I currently live in a neighborhood called echo park. I like to compare it to the wicker park of chicago for all of those reading my blog from chicago. To be completely honest it is much cooler. When you add in the palm trees, hills, weather and the diversity of people you can’t go wrong or help but fall in love with l.a. It has been a bit of a wild and interesting couple of days but i just want to focus on one of the positive events/ feelings of today.

All day i have been trying to figure some stuff out. Things that take a lot of thought and understanding. Things that aren’t just anyones ordinary, everyday decisions. Things that really can change and define our lives in even the littlest of ways. I actually reached out to a friend today from Chicago for some advice and to be honest, just to have someone who is familiar and close to my heart be a part of what i was dealing with means a lot. But i know she knows that. I don’t want to go on too much of a tangent but she was part of making the day good. And in reality she probably hates me , i would hate me now too, so i understand. But the truth is you can only give so much of yourself to someone before it reaches a different level and if they don’t feel or see that then there isn’t much left you can do. I know thats really unclear to most of you and reading this you probably don’t understand how the person who probably hates me can be so close or make todays day better but i think its better that way because you just wouldn’t understand. 

Anyway, after all was said and done i was ready to get some air, ready to be reminded that the rest of the world still exists and that it isn’t the end. There is much i have to do, learn and prepare for but its hard to have patience and the will. The will to be humble, the will to wait, the will to be who you want to be. The will to accept others people decisions. The will to know and understand something. Not because you can’t understand it but because up until now you didn’t want to understand it. To have that will is a powerful thing. I hopped on my longboard skateboard and decided i needed to start this journey. Both feet on the board. In complete control of what was happening. I took my ride to be somewhat of a metaphor, cheesy maybe, but nevertheless impact-full and fulfilling. I was now locked in and heading down a hill, ready to take on any new obstacles that will arise while still breathing the air knowing i was in some level, free. Free from my fears. The fear of a hill? sure. But even more i’m free from the fear of the answers to come. Its time i leave my questions on the plate for the one who knows how to answer and fix them best. I cruised down echo park street, passing a bus full of people..the old lady further down the block waiting on the bus stop, holding a bag of groceries in one had and a cane in the other..passing the wall full of graffiti, art, expressions, whatever you want heart desires to call it. The man selling fruit on the corner, or the hipsters walking to the local bar. The business man walking out of the bank either looking at how broke he is or how much money he’s got to waste. Dodging and weaving past the palm trees..accelerating or slowing down based on the depth of each hill i came to..all in all to say that it felt good to ride and experience the world around me. Tomorrow is another day.